kellementology

life according to me

Category: NaNoWriMo

  • The television effect

    The television effect

    One of the many new aspects of our life at the house on Elkelton was a color television. The Curtis Mathes set was Colonial in style and made of maple. It was a big box of a thing that sat on four decorative legs about six inches off the floor. To me, it resembled a cartoon pig with legs too small to support its body.  In 1968, it was the Cadillac of color televisions. The last time we had a television in the house, it was nothing like this. The old black and white cube of a set with the simulated wood finish had followed us to Spain and back and was sitting in the garage looking every bit the oddity it was. After begging our parents to stop at every motel that advertised a color TV on our drive across the country, the idea of seeing a large screened wonder sitting in our own living room was almost magical.

    Years of playing outside with the neighborhood pack on the Navy base quickly transitioned into TV Guide scheduled reruns on school afternoons and late weekend nights. Sliding down grassy banks on flattened cardboard boxes, drawing on the street in front of our house with roadside chalk, playing jacks, and roller skating were replaced by the canned laughter of Bewitched, That Girl, and The Beverly Hillbillies. Gilligan’s Island practically played on loop– ridiculous considering the show only ran two years on prime time. With only three channels to choose from, our viewing schedule was pretty much set.

    We watched so much television, I still remember the words and melodies of some of the commercial ditties–like Van de Kamp’s Baked Beans. Thanks to the wonder of the internet, you can go back in time to enjoy this gem my brain has safely stored on its Rolodex.

    “All the little things that make you smile and glow!” Or as my stepfather Leo  referred to beans when they were on the dinner menu, “Hundreds of magical things.”

    We rarely if ever had the ability to make requests of my mom when the time came for the every other week grocery shop at the Navy commissary. But now, we were connoisseurs of whatever brand caught our attention thanks to television. No longer were we locked into the Prell, Crest, Zest household we’d been for as long as I could remember. I can still smell the Pledge furniture polish we used when it was my turn to clean the living room, or the Ivory dishwashing liquid when it was my turn to do the dinner dishes. Soon, Palmolive, Irish Spring, and the Brawny paper towels that only Leo was allowed to use made their way into our lives. Where as before, we walked home from school for lunch each day, now we had our very own supply of Twinkies, Ding Dongs, and Ruffles potato chips or Fritos to stuff into baggies each day. It’s no wonder my weight began to creep up. By the time I was in the 8th grade, my lean body had grown to 130 lbs.

    The irony of having a new color television is that I discovered the comfort of old black and white movies. I’d scan the TV Guide for them, marking the listing with a star to make it known I had dibs on the time slot. I was a movie fan in general because the theater and drive-in on the base were free and my parents treated us regularly. But this was different. Other than the Charlie Chan movies that aired on Sunday mornings after Mass which we watched together while making burgers (yes, you read that correctly–burgers for breakfast), I was the only one who seemed to be interested. I soon found my quiet time with Hedy Lamarr and Esther Williams. I fell in love with Robert Young and Cary Grant. Carole Lombard, Lauren Bacall, and Loretta Young all left me start struck. Movies like Mrs. Miniver, The Ghost and Mrs. Muir, and It’s a Wonderful Life became favorites I to watch to this day when I happen upon one of them and feel the need for nostalgia. Musicals and romance comedies in particular became the perfect escape from the rapidly approaching wool suit of adolescence. 

    7th Grade Me

    And then there was the news. It would have been impossible not to be aware of world events considering we had lived on a Navy base positioned at the mouth of the Mediterranean during the Vietnam War. But the base was a relatively small community and the US thousands of miles away. Still, we knew how unpopular the war was and of the protests taking place at home. Of the assassinations of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. and Senator Robert Kennedy within less than two months of one another, and just as we were preparing to return home. Of President Johnson deciding not to run for reelection and Richard Nixon deciding to give it one more try.  Still, it was like being in a cocoon, sheltered from reality. News happened elsewhere to others.

    Now, the news was in our living room, daily. Walter Cronkite reported from Vietnam in fatigues and a helmet. Choppers whooped in the background as men on the ground carried casualties on stretchers to unload them into open bays. Young men burned draft cards, women burned bras. The Soviet Union invades Czechoslovakia. Black Olympians raise their fists during a medal ceremony in Mexico City in protest of the violence and poverty Black Americans are subjected to. Astronauts circle the moon and return to Earth safely for the first time.

    As much as having a television provided an escape, there was no escaping the harsh realities of life.

    To be continued…

    This is a draft of a memoir. I’m participating in NaNoWriMo and writing about my life in houses. It’s uncomfortable to put myself out here like this, unedited and by the seat of my pants, but I’ve got 14 days to get a good foundation down for something I’ve wanted to write for a long time. We’ll be off to England then for several weeks, and I hope to have something solid enough to work with when we return. Thanks for reading. All input is appreciated. 

  • The house on Elkelton

    The house on Elkelton

    Whether I’ve wanted to or not, I’ve hung on to certain numbers of significance in my life. They roll off my tongue when I’m playing the memory one-upmanship game with someone: 4023, the phone number assigned to our family on the Navy base in Rota, Spain; 1056, the address of the house on Navarra Lane; 3-8-55, the birthday of the boy I was supposed to marry but decided against.  They’re random, just like so much of life can be.

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  • The effect of a cat on motivation and routine

    The effect of a cat on motivation and routine

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    If deciding at the last minute to take on a reasonable facsimile of NaNoWriMo was to serve a purpose, it has only taken two days to realize it. Before I was out of bed this morning, mind habitually processing what the day would entail, I recognized the spark of emotion related to motivation. An excuse to ignore everything and with coffee in hand, park myself in front of my Mac. This had to be a good thing.

    But something happened on the way to the kitchen. My cat happened. This is not unusual. In fact, it’s routine. Her morning greeting is urgent and gains volume as I approach the front door. She wants out, and it never seems to matter that my husband has been up and about, and has already let her out. She always returns for the ceremonial exercise that only she and I engage in.

    I open the door and she grumbles as she passes over the threshold, stopping just before she’s completely outside. I wait, she looks at me, grumbles once more before leaning her posterior against the door. I decide I’ll wait until the third or fourth time we’ve completed the round to go out onto the porch and scratch the furry belly wantonly displayed for just that purpose. Priorities. I need to make coffee.

    Once the Bialetti is on, I fill the dishwasher, rinse the sinks, prepare a large bowl of cold, sudsy water for quick wash ups during the day, and assess the rest of the kitchen. It’s good enough to give the impression it’s clean, but more importantly, won’t distract me from the day’s mission: writing.

    Before the coffee begins to well up in the moka pot, I can hear the cat scratching at the front door. She’ll want in, I’ll have a cat food can in hand, ask her if she’d like to eat and pop the lid to get her attention.

    It works every time. She stands as close to the threshold as possible without actually touching it, licking her lips, yelling simultaneously. I know I’ll have to go out onto the porch, and nudge her inside before the game is over. She will be satisfied for a time knowing her food is where it should be, in her bowl. All will be well in her world.

    Coffee now burnt, I tell myself more milk will help, though I know it won’t. That spark of motivation felt earlier has now turned to an annoyance. I recall how long I worked on the piece I wrote yesterday, fiddling with photos, making attempts to write something meaningful when what I set out to do was just write.

    Something occurrs to me. If I was going to spend the better part of a day fussing over a blog post, why wouldn’t I spend that time organizing manuscript revisions? Why, indeed.

    November stretches ahead in my mind, its interruptions now in full focus. Thanksgiving aside, I have a trip booked immediately following and will be gone for a week. And then there is the “staycation” we thought we were so smart to decide upon which officially begins tomorrow.

    I tell myself I’ll have so much to write about.  Stay calm and carry on! And I will. But it has only taken two days to remind myself of a lesson I seem never to learn. I don’t have to commit to an event to engage in an activity, or to change a behavior. To take on a new interest, or rekindle motivation in those once beloved. There isn’t a magic date on a calendar, a finish line, a set of guidelines or rules.

    There is just me, and whatever it is I set out to do. I have to decide whether that matters or not. The problems is, far too many things matter.

    My coffee is now cold, and the cat is sitting just at my office door, yelling. When I get up to reheat my coffee, she will scurry down the stairs ahead of me, grumbling all the way out the back door where I will be expected to give her a morning brushing, and then find tender shoots of grass for her to chew on.

    Routine is what we make of it — or what it makes of us.

    Day 3, check.

  • NaNoWriMo minus the novel

    NaNoWriMo minus the novel

     

    Whenever November 1st comes around, I think of NaNoWriMo. You may think it odd, but once committed to a month of writing nearly 1800 words each day, expecting to complete a novel, you remember. If you’re unfamiliar with NaNoWriMo, it’s National November Writing Month. The goal in participating is that participants complete a novel in 30 days.

    I’m not writing a novel this time, but I’ve spent the better part of the last three years working on one I began the last time I participated. I’ve fallen out of practice writing casually, so I’m hoping that if I commit to 30 days of writing for the sake of writing, I’ll find my rhythm once more.

    I’ll write. I’ll sit down, make the commitment, and write. If I’m organized, then I’ll have a plan about what to write. If not, then I’ll fit into the “by the seat of my pants” category. That’s not an awful place to be until it’s time to revise and then “nightmare” is a more fitting description of the predicament I’ll find myself in. Still, I believe strongly in simply putting words to page. The exercise is always interesting, and often helps uncover ideas that otherwise may remain buried. Ideas that may or may not want surface area attention. Like disturbing current day events.

    Times are distracting, and it’s difficult to avoid the lure of angry opinions, or baiting from people once cared for who seem no longer to have anything in common with me. Disturbing, indeed.

    Yet there is much to divert because life is diverting on most days if I allow it. It includes what’s “over the wall,” when one’s home seems to be planted on a postage stamp, and the Suburbiana it’s a part of. It includes people watching and listening, caring or no longer caring. Learning. Aging. Existing in places long outgrown, or never belonged to begin with.

    NaNoWriMo is a perfect outlet. If you’re interested, and even if you’re not, I’ll write here every other day beginning today, alternating with sass & veracity, my alter ego. Food may or may not be involved. Travel may.

    And for what it’s worth, beyond this haphazard post, I plan to be thoughtful.

    Promises, promises.

    Day One.

    Check.

     

     

     

  • What was I thinking? Round Two.

    What was I thinking? Round Two.

    Last year as response to a request from a friend, I committed myself to 30 days of writing my first novel during National November Writing Month, lovingly referred to as NaNoWriMo.  Fifty-thousand words written in 30 days qualifies anyone as a winner and outside of being diligent enough to actually write those words, the resulting manuscript file must also be uploaded to qualify your effort.

    Check to all of the above and I was a certified winner last year.  I wrote my 50,000+ words with only a few hitches in my giddy up:  we visited our son in San Francisco for Thanksgiving and were stuck there for two additional nights due to heavy fog up and down the coast.  We love San Francisco and visit frequently, but this was not one of our best travel memories.  Nevertheless, I did write during our delay, then after arriving home, pounded out the rest of the required word count.

    Of course I wasn’t finished.

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  • Procrastination and Christmas

    Procrastination and Christmas

    NaNoWriMo is officially over and what have I done with my crappy draft of a half-done manuscript since November 30th?

    Well.

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  • Moving around a roadblock.

    Moving around a roadblock.

     

    I was going to write about all of the heavy thoughts I’ve been mulling over since the election this past Tuesday and about how at a time like this I would normally feel like jumping up and down, waving flags and celebrating with sheer joy at the outcome,  but I have not done that.  Outside of shedding a few tears of complete relief, I have worried more about those whose votes did not gain them what I have heard described as “their” president in office come next January and not “mine.”

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  • So, how’s it going?

    So, how’s it going?

     

    Day 3 of NaNoWriMo is waning but my energy to keep writing hasn’t and that feeling has been present each day so far — sort of.    And I’m ahead of myself, so allow me an explanation:  I think this will be an important place to think about what I’m learning about myself and writing throughout this process and not so much a place to catch anyone up on exactly what I’m writing.

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  • Four Days and Counting…

    Four Days and Counting…

     

    …until NaNoWriMo begins and although I feel my planning is not only coming along nicely, it’s fun.  That’s always a good sign, isn’t it?

    I have a loose schedule figured out for myself:

    Rise early (okay, so earlier than waiting until the MoH backs out of the driveway) at 7:00

    Coffee and yogurt while rereading previous day’s work.

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  • Getting Organized for NaNoWriMo

    Getting Organized for NaNoWriMo

    In the last few days that I’ve been adjusting to participating in NaNoWriMo, I’ve been planning.  Thinking and planning.  Thinking, and reading, listening, remembering, and planning.  What I’ve not been doing is planning a plot for my novel. Wait.

    My. Novel.

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